The author reflects on the chaotic experience of relocating from South Africa to Scotland, describing it as a "guddle," a Scottish term for confusion. While embracing this chaos, she acknowledges the stress of navigating a new life, learning unfamiliar systems, and sacrificing beloved art supplies. Despite this turmoil stifling her creativity, she found solace in knitting, which provided moments of expressiveness. Ultimately, the journey demands resilience and adaptability, illustrating the complexities of starting anew in later life.