I definitely felt that if I didn’t think about cancer it wouldn’t happen to me. This is magical thinking. I had an irrational fear that if I contemplated cancer I would somehow open myself up to it.
How do we bridge the gap Created by anxiety or anger The emotions that ripple-effect Pushing back I can’t reach or won’t reach Till I resolve to make a way Coming forwards Owning my baggage Acknowledging the impact on you Only as we want to work together no ifs' or buttes Only as we let … Continue reading Together we bridge the gap.
I was eager to know about the procedure of the implants as it would help me make up my mind about the mastectomy of the 'healthy breast.'
Journal entry 21/08/2012 I met Dr Aaron Ndhluni today. He will be looking after me as my surgeon. He is nice, reassuring, warm, kind, and has a sense of humour. I am blessed that Derek has made provision for a hospital fund and insurance for the gap cover for the 5 dread diseases. We shook … Continue reading Cancer continued: meeting my surgeon
When we first began to talk about the trip we didn’t know where we wanted to travel. We just knew we had the desire to go so we sat down and made a list of what we each wanted individually. We then took from our lists all the common interests. Originally Derek had wanted to … Continue reading An African Adventure: Cars and equipment
I have always felt uncomfortable writing about my cancer but I feel like I owe it to others who might need to hear about my story. Anybody can google the facts about cancer but I want to try to portray my experience as vividly as possible. My friend had just gone for a mammogram check-up … Continue reading Discovering I had cancer.
If you have followed me in the past you would have noticed that I haven’t blogged for over a year. There are two main reasons. The first is quite simple and I think that many of you would relate to this. I got caught up by being a perfectionist. The blog is too short, it’s […]
I remember the precious friends we made along the way when we travelled to Malawi through Southern Africa. I loved meeting camping friends because of all the different walks of life and the stories we shared. It was such a joy to bump into the same people at different camping sites and compare notes and … Continue reading Fellow Tavellers
I woke up at 4.15 in the morning with the sun was just tipping the horizon at 4.40. My anxiety was also making an appearance. At first Derek and I found it difficult to decide where to go, who to phone and how to go about ‘it’. The indecision made me irritable. A storm was … Continue reading What a day! Day 2 Fri 15th Aug 1997
'Feelings and river sounds' accompany Week 3 Making space for feelings compassionately from the Mojo Diary. You don't need to have read the book to use the meditation which you can find here 'Feelings and river sounds' We can experience feelings anytime but uncomfortable ones often emerge when we experience challenges. Meditation and awareness can … Continue reading Meditation: making space for feelings.