Living with Renovation

/ moragnoffke

As you know we bought our house over a year ago and we have been renovating it. It was a fine house before but being South African in Scotland, feeling the cold a bit more than most here, Derek decided to put underfloor heating in the bedrooms as well as the lounge. He did it all himself.

We also did other alterations but I am sure you remember I have covered that before. We are finally sleeping in our bedroom since the 12th June this year. We have been living like nomads and have moved three times during the renovations. To be honest it has been a lot to bare and so I wrote this poem to try to depict the struggle.

The Jumble Grim
_(scattered grammar is intended to depict my reality)_

The struggle
Of Chaos
And calm
Pressing time lines
And practicing patience
The juggle
Of panic
And breath
Finding space
Amidst the busy-ness

I Fumble
For words
And thoughts
And Typing my blogs
And Fleeting ideas
The jumble
With past
And present
Re-membering
Myself to journal

The Rubble
Remains
Literally
Sitting on our porch
Waiting for phase two
With Shovel
In hand
I sigh
“It’s only a dream
When I had energy” I cry

I Fumble
Through highs
And lows
Hoping for more
Letting go, letting go
In Mumble
Of static
And jazz
Finding peace
Is a challenging choice


I Cuddle
My Self
Only
Some fleeting moments
Before I fly again
The Snuggle
Of comfort
And care
Is Choosing love
Infused everywhere

The tumble
is life
and death
Messy demands
And building confidence.
I’m Humbled
And grateful
For my sustenance
Despite maddening clamor..

So lest I Crumble
Let me bustle
I want no more trouble.

If any of you feel like you are going through a personal struggle I would encourage you to hang on tight, day by day,  step by step, and lean into the support from your family, friends and mentors.

Thank you to everyone who have supported me.

Take care

~Morag Noffke

26 thoughts on “Living with Renovation”

    • ❤️🌹❤️🌹Awwwww thank you, kindred spirits perhaps 😊 I tried to be authentic to where I was at, all creativity focused on survival. Now I am becoming reaquainted with my Creative again. 😀

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  8. Glad you got some time to post here. I know you were very busy. I read through your poem quickly out loud and found that made the feeling more present of the lack of time, energy, joy, and everything. It must have been overbearing at times.

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  11. I remember my renovation 😀 it was insane time but it was over…the feeling of satisfaction was amazing.
    I’m glad that you can sleep in your bedroom. And your poem is really beautiful.

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