Poetry Style: 2/4/6/2 Aquarian Yes it's True I feel bad Euthanasia guilt Is real
What you felt best
The kindest thing to do"
Very Little comfort In my reality. Remorse
Does not Help bring them back; It's just a fantasy. Feel stuck.
To embrace compassion
You mourn accept
You did the best you could
It out of love.
Now connect with that love
Between you two
If you feel you need to.
The care giver
As it provides
Joy of togetherness.
It is normal to go
I feel Peaceful now and I can sleep well tonight At last. I look forward to see You bounding towards my Recall
I do Choose remembrance Of such sweet memories Of you.
See you In my dreaming. This will be sheer delight. Sleep tight. I feel Peaceful now and I can sleep well tonight. At last.
Firstly I want to credit Molly Shea https://henhouselady.com/, whom I follow, as to the inspiration of the style of poetry (Aquarian use of syllables in each line are 2, 4, 6, 2). She has a lovely explanation if you want to go to her site to see it. I decided to use this style for my poem for effect.
Secondly to explain the poem: euthanasia is not easy or simple, I am sure you know that. I share this poem in the hopes that it might help someone else who might be suffering the enormous guilt that can wash over you, like it did for me as I lay there trying to sleep. I wept and wept; feeling bad and shameful.
I decided at 1pm to google “dog euthanasia guilt” and found this article Euthanasia Guilt: Feelings of Regret or Remorse by Dr. Karie Johnson, Co-Founder of VIP Vet Visit. It explains that guilt is a normal part of the process, many people experience it. You put your animal to sleep with the best intentions because you love them but afterwards the bargaining happens and you think “but…” “what if…” “What will people think?” “if only I had…” and so on.
We do the best we can at the time; sometimes our situation demands a decision which is hard to live with: financial reasons, moving countries, animals health deteriorating to name a few. Our best includes putting our feelings aside to be responsible for our animals.
According to Dr. Karie Johnson we will struggle to grieve satisfactorily if we get stuck with our guilt. From my understanding we need to acknowledge that what we did was out of love for our animal so that we can reconnect to the loving relationship we had. Once we do this we find it easier to grieve fully. Her article is well worth the read.
As I read this I began to see my actions in a different light and was able to hold myself with compassion. And that is when I wrote this poem. I am feeling sad today, missing little doggie eyes but I am in a good place. Thank you for all your comments on my last post.