A Quiet Confession

/ moragnoffke

Mundane or Frustrating Days

An Evening reflection. As I reflect over the day this evening: Today was one of those days. I felt like I was walking back-to-front on a conveyor belt. I planned to write this morning and do art this afternoon but then life got in the way. Doesn’t really matter what it was but it had to get done. Yet every moment counts — Not towards effectively executing ones’ plans to the nth degree but every moment counts in how gracefully we can move and flow with the unexpected events. All events in our lives are valuable. This is the challenge I work with.

I must confess, as I reflect back on the day, there was a moment of frustration and the inner-critic voice chiming in my ear, questioning why did I mess up? I didn’t achieve 100%. But in the next few moments of quiet I had to admit to myself that this too is life. These are the mundane things that had to happen today; and that is okay!

  • We booked for two folk festivals and accommodation for July and August (Stonehaven and Saltburn)
  • I had got positive feedback at my doctors appointment
  • fed the birds and slipped on the ice
  • cooked lunch
  • done the laundry
  • given myself space just to think about my past blogs
  • moved a meeting
  • etc

I was pleased to note that at least I wasn’t running around like a scolded cat in utter dismay. There was no lashing out of claws and hissing at those around me. I stood my ground against the inner-critic and calmly lived through my chaotic day with as much grace as I could muster.

It did mean that I had to speak up and ask for a meeting to be moved by 2 hours but what’s to lose in asking? They can either say yes or no. Happily the answer was yes. This is a tiny shift to admitting my vulnerability. I don’t always get it right and need grace.

Do you have days like this where you feel like you did nothing because you didn’t tick everything off the expected list yet actually you did do a lot? Let me know in the comments.

Take care and much grace.

15 thoughts on “A Quiet Confession”

    • Thank you for your kind comment and for stopping by to read my post. Yes it was a peaceful evening. I think when one names the expectation and the issue at hand it’s easier to change direction either in attitude or actions .

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    • Yes you are right, on reflection I was doing ok. That’s the realisation. Fortunately I have been practicing many a ‘balancing pose’ and other exercises to combat the aging process 🤣. Maybe that helped because to my surprise I just skid-skated along. Ice is an unfamiliar component in my life now.

      Storm Goretti is heading our way and temperatures are plummeting but I don’t think we’re getting the worst of it. But thank you, staying warm is the aim. Have the temperatures dropped in Northern Florida yet?

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